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"Depression is humiliating. It turns intelligent, kind people into zombies who can’t wash a dish or change their socks. It affects the ability to think clearly, to feel anything, to ascribe value to your children, your lifelong passions, your relative good fortune. It scoops out your normal healthy ability to cope with bad days and bad news, and replaces it with an unrecognizable sludge that finds no pleasure, no delight, no point in anything outside of bed. You alienate your friends because you can’t comport yourself socially, you risk your job because you can’t concentrate, you live in moderate squalor because you have no energy to stand up, let alone take out the garbage. You become pathetic and you know it. And you have no capacity to stop the downward plunge. You have no perspective, no emotional reserves, no faith that it will get better. So you feel guilty and ashamed of your inability to deal with life like a regular human, which exacerbates the depression and the isolation. If you’ve never been depressed, thank your lucky stars and back off the folks who take a pill so they can make eye contact with the grocery store cashier. No one on earth would choose the nightmare of depression over an averagely turbulent normal life.
It’s not an incapacity to cope with day to day living in the modern world. It’s an incapacity to function. At all. If you and your loved ones have been spared, every blessing to you. If depression has taken root in you or your loved ones, every blessing to you, too. No one chooses it. No one deserves it. It runs in families, it ruins families. You cannot imagine what it takes to feign normalcy, to show up to work, to make a dentist appointment, to pay bills, to walk your dog, to return library books on time, to keep enough toilet paper on hand, when you are exerting most of your capacity on trying not to kill yourself. Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary. Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods and they may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives as a force greater than their depression. Have a heart. Judge not lest ye be judged."
EVERYONE NEEDS TO READ THIS.
Depression is not a synonym for being sad or having a bad day/bad week.
It’s not a PHASE. It’s not a CHOICE. It’s not LAZINESS.
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I just realized
That I didn’t cry today. Or yesterday. Or the day before. Now that I think about it, I haven’t cried since Thursday. It has almost been a whole week since I’ve cried. I’m not going to go so far as to say that I am as happy as I used to be. But you know what, I haven’t cried. And to me, that’s a really fucking big deal. I’m not exactly proud of some of the things I do now to keep me happy, but if that’s the way it has to be, I don’t mind. I may not be getting better the right way, but I feel better and to me that’s all that matters. Feeling so depressed all the time is exhausting, physically and emotionally. So to me, anything I can do to make myself feel good, I’m all for it. Things are finally getting better and I didn’t need medication to make it happen.
All in all, it’s a really great feeling when you realized that you haven’t cried in 6 days, especially when you’re life was filled with crying. All those times I skipped class and said I just didn’t feel like going? I was actually sitting in my car crying, and couldn’t bare to walk in and have people see me like that. My grades suck this semester because about half way through, I stopped going to class because I would be crying. So I’m really proud of myself for making it 6 days without tears. And of course now as I’m writing this, I’m almost tearing up, but I’m able to fight them back, which is also something I’m not used to. It’s empowering.
I like not crying.
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Went to sleep at 5pm today
Now there is absolutely no way I am sleeping through the night.
This should be interesting.
